Very Upset.

Every time I get ahead, I fall back on my behind. I the past year and two months, I lost so much. I lost the love of my life, my own dignity, my best fiend, and more. To think that I was getting away with the wind. I was so far ahead to get pushed hard into two times more hardship than before. I absolutely hate myself right now. I can't believe it. Here we go again, same stuff different year...